1st Wedding Anniversary

On the 18th of March 2012 Matthew and I wedded in front of our dear friends and family.

It was the most exciting experience of my life.

We we're together for 6 months and have been now separated for 6 months.

People told me before we got married that the first year is always the hardest.

As most of us tend to do, I ignored the statement and thought I had it all figured out.

The first few months of the seperation I was angry.

I was angry that the people who stood by us then were now telling us to move on.

God kept showing me this verse.

1 Corinthians 7:10

To the married I give this command (not I, but the Lord): A wife must not separate from her husband.

I battled with this verse as I copped abuse from my husband daily.

I questioned God constantly of what I should do.

The answer kept coming back to the verse above.

As days turned to weeks

and weeks turned to months

I put more and more trust in God and his will for our lives.

My heart changed and I become weaker.

Because I knew that God chose him for me, for us.

He is not perfect, but he is perfect for me.

I began to see my own flaws instead of focusing on his.

I realized how much I took him for granted.

I saw my part in our marriage and started seeing the things I'd want to change to have him home.

Last week I apologized for everything hurtful I said to him.

He accepted it but has not yet said sorry in return.

I'm kind of used to waiting so wait and pray I shall.

God is answering my prayers.

For the last six months we couldn't even finish a phone conversation.

A week ago Matt spoke to a lawyer about a divorce.

Monday is our anniversary.

We're going out for dinner to a local restaurant.

It will be our first time alone together since the split.

I'm praying with all my might that God will reign all over our marriage in two nights time.

I'm praying for a mirical that Matt will walk us home..