Can’t Summer Stay?

 So Summer came to an end a few days ago and this makes my heart break a little.

I had a really tough end to February. I was missing my Dad a whole lot after selling the car we once shared, a lot was going on with work and I felt like I was being pulled into community drama with people I don’t know, and people who don’t even know me. Sonzie was sick, my co worker went on unexpected leave, my ex is living on the streets and relies heavily on me for support, my daughter was refusing school and I was just overwhelmed with responsibility. 

My cup was all the way empty and on top of everything else my mother in law had me feeling so suffocated bringing me in to judge and speak about someone I actually like and admire as a person.

I lost it. I lost it with David, I lost it with David’s Mum and I just had enough. 

In tears, overwhelmed, exhausted but knowing it wasn’t fair to be taking all my shit out on David, I jumped in the car and drove us to the fish n chip shop we went to on our first date and to the beautiful ocean side where our love story first started. 

We enjoyed our dinner and I opened all the way up to David and apologised for how I had been lately especially towards him. I then took the advice of one of my very respected friends and took a refreshing swim in the ocean to cleanse all the bad juju I feel I had on me. 

I feel like a spent the last few weeks of Summer in a funk. My Favorite month and now it’s gone.. 

Can’t Summer Stay?

Feeling ready for a big week ahead and a month of new goals only doing what I can do as the human I am.

Please pray for a better month for me.