A Letter to my Future Self

Dear Me,

It's the 2nd of January 2026 today! 2026! Wow.. This time 10 years ago you were sitting in your room writing this blog post, on an unmade bed with an air cooler blowing on your face. (I really hope you have an Air Conditioner for yourself now to keep cool today.) For the last two days we have had Penny and her Fiance Stewie, Ben, Zach, Jacob, Judea and Toby hanging out with us. They pitched a tent in our backyard on New Years Eve and we have all been enjoying the pool, the basketball hoop, the tennis set, the trampoline and we have had a BBQ both nights. Zach, Ben, Penny and Stewie sat up watching Guess Who with me last night. We pigged out on crackers and dip and chocolate and chips. It's so good to have company and was a really fun night. They're going home today. 

My goals going into 2016 are pretty much the same as last year.. and some. Last years goals were to 

1. Get My License 
2. Finish my Cert IV in Youth Work
3. Possibly buy a Car
4. Lose 10kg
5. Take a Child Free Holiday (new)

However none of these were achieved. And with good reason. My priority has never has been me. My priority are my children. At this point in time I also kinship care for my sisters two youngest as well. They have both gone through and seen so much in their little lives so there has been a lot loving on them and them needing my time and attention. They will be 14 and 19 when they read this and hopefully still at school or/and working part-time. I hope I have been able to impact their lives in someway and contribute to them becoming good hearted and wholesome people out there in the world. 

It's hard to think of my kids being 16 and 20 at this present time. I am smiling at the thought. My biggest fears are hopefully a distant memory as they start their journey into independence. I hope they each love and trust in Jesus enough to follow him and to be wise in hard situations. I pray that they will always love and be there for each other and that we still come together and lean on each other in the tough times. I really hope we were together the night before last bringing in a brand new year in and sharing our accomplishments and love around the BBQ with friends just as we did this year.

As for me,my hope is that I actually got to become a youth worker and impact the community the way I have dreamt of since being on the streets myself. I hope I am happy with or without a man and that Jesus is still the head of my house. I hope I am still in touch with my best friend Zoe and my Dad is still around for me to love, spoil and confide in. I hope at 37 I am finally enjoying some time to myself and if I haven't done so already, travel overseas. I hope I continued being the best mother I could possibly be and that my brother and sister still no that I love them so so much. I don't want to be rich or have a fancy house with amazing things at this point in time. This may change. But I hope I never forget the importance of family and hope that I am still a good role model for my kids. My Happy is my kids. I hope that is still my happy in 2026.

** I have set this letter to again be published on the 2nd of January 2026 when I will be 37.