So, my blog log tells me that I have not been blogging quite as often as I used to. Friends who read (or rather, want to read) my blog have been asking why. And the truth is, I dont really know why.. I used to blog about anything and everything. I used to blog about the kids firsts, their cute little sayings or take part in a few cute bloghops. But the truth is I have just been very unmotivated. Uninspired even. I get sidetracked from documenting the new things the kids are doing. My days have become a little lonelier since Nevaeh is now at Kindergarten 3 times a week and I have been so busy trying to create a life I love in my parenting, faith and home that my time and effort is usually in one of those three things at any one time. But something else BIG has happened this past week.. With the kids now at school and kinder I am now able to do something with my own life.. I have realized that I am a Mum. That is 'what' I am and all I have been for the last 8 years. But I'm still yet to find out who I am and now have the opportunity to actually be whoever I want to be.. Since the age of 15, I've always wanted to be a youth worker. That was my dream. After falling pregnant at 16, my dream was pushed to the back of my mind and all the joys of parenting came first. 8 years later, here I am, finally able to follow my dreams and although most of my high school friends have pursued their dreams God has lead me here, now a student, beginning my journey to be a youth worker. I had my first week this week and I know within that I am exactly where I am meant to be. My dreams are finally becoming a reality and I am so excited!! Life is so amazing right now. Jie is doing great in School, Nevaeh is loving Kinder and I am on my own journey! Can life get any better than this right now? I think not. I'm in awe of God's work in my life and for my life. "In His perfect timing" I remember someone once saying to me.. Thank you Jesus!
Saturday, 31 August 2013
Sunday, 18 August 2013
It feels like forever since I last blogged.. I remember a time when blogging was a part of my every day life.. I would create moments with my days whether it be baking goodies or doing things with the kids to take pictures and share. Sort of like a journal of our family life together. I miss that part about being a blogger. But I also love who I have become now and the way God is directing my life.
I dont often plan my days as I used to when the kids were younger. With most of the kids week now occupied with school and kinder, I have learned to trust more in God.
The transition from mum to melissa has not been so easy for me. I have only ever been a mum. For 8 years I have only ever put my kids first. Before that, I was a drug addict living on the streets. There was never any real opportunity for me after having my son at 17 and everyone in my family always felt the need to tell me that I had wasted my life becoming a mother without an education.
I taught myself to want better. Everything I have done with my life up until this point I have done on my own, teaching myself and searching for answers to whatever I didnt have the answers for. I rely on no one and only ever recieve help when others offer. I dont ask for anything and expect nothing.
Without God I wonder who I would be today.. Because of his lessons, the bible and other Christians I have a compassionate loving nature. My friends find me addictive because I bring life into their lives and give them perspective. God has taught me to love, forgive, pray and to choose to live in peace, and that's all in just the last year.. I am thankful to have Him guiding my life these days. Its so much easier with Him in total control.
Next week I get an amazing opportunity to prove all who told me I was nothing, wrong. Next week I begin a new journey of my own. Since I was 14, I wanted to make a difference to peoples lives just like so many people did for me as a child and growing up. I want to make a difference in my community. Next week, I start a course in community services!
It's not going to be a high qualification at the end but it'll be a step closer to making my dreams a reality. I'm both excited and nervous.
With us all so busy now it's going to be very easy to lose focus on our family. I aim to be writing and sharing a lot more on here as a way to treasure the little ones who wont be children forever. I love being a mum, but becoming Melissa is somewhat exciting.. With God in control nothing is impossible!!
Friday, 2 August 2013
continuing on from this post..
After the school holidays Nevaeh went to her first day.
She came home from her first day telling me that some little boy punched her in the face.
"It's okay Mum, I pushed him over into the sand pit." she said quite proudly.
I think having a big brother may help with some of these little toughies at her kinder.
The second day she didn't want to go but once she got there she was fine.
It's been a blessing to have a family friend picking her up and dropping her off on Tues and Thurs.
In two days alone I would be spending $60 on taxi's. $15 there and $15 back. Twice a week.
And that is not including peak hour.
So a would be, could be, $90 week in transport is only costing me $30.
God is so good to us.
And to the friend driving Nevaeh to and from Kinder.
I'm paying him $10 and a coffee every morning!
What a bargain.
On a whole Nevaeh loves her kinder.
And although Hosanna and her don't always get along, I'm glad she is there with her.
My little blossom is growing up way too fast.
My baby no more.