Sunday, 18 August 2013
It feels like forever since I last blogged.. I remember a time when blogging was a part of my every day life.. I would create moments with my days whether it be baking goodies or doing things with the kids to take pictures and share. Sort of like a journal of our family life together. I miss that part about being a blogger. But I also love who I have become now and the way God is directing my life.
I dont often plan my days as I used to when the kids were younger. With most of the kids week now occupied with school and kinder, I have learned to trust more in God.
The transition from mum to melissa has not been so easy for me. I have only ever been a mum. For 8 years I have only ever put my kids first. Before that, I was a drug addict living on the streets. There was never any real opportunity for me after having my son at 17 and everyone in my family always felt the need to tell me that I had wasted my life becoming a mother without an education.
I taught myself to want better. Everything I have done with my life up until this point I have done on my own, teaching myself and searching for answers to whatever I didnt have the answers for. I rely on no one and only ever recieve help when others offer. I dont ask for anything and expect nothing.
Without God I wonder who I would be today.. Because of his lessons, the bible and other Christians I have a compassionate loving nature. My friends find me addictive because I bring life into their lives and give them perspective. God has taught me to love, forgive, pray and to choose to live in peace, and that's all in just the last year.. I am thankful to have Him guiding my life these days. Its so much easier with Him in total control.
Next week I get an amazing opportunity to prove all who told me I was nothing, wrong. Next week I begin a new journey of my own. Since I was 14, I wanted to make a difference to peoples lives just like so many people did for me as a child and growing up. I want to make a difference in my community. Next week, I start a course in community services!
It's not going to be a high qualification at the end but it'll be a step closer to making my dreams a reality. I'm both excited and nervous.
With us all so busy now it's going to be very easy to lose focus on our family. I aim to be writing and sharing a lot more on here as a way to treasure the little ones who wont be children forever. I love being a mum, but becoming Melissa is somewhat exciting.. With God in control nothing is impossible!!